I’ve learned that I can choose to be the happy learner on a daily basis – or not. I had a great experience yesterday in Warsaw, Poland. I almost missed it.
On Friday evening, one of my hosts had insisted that she take me sight seeing in the morning. I must confess I really didn’t wish to. I’m not one for sight seeing anymore. It’s not why I travel. I travel to be able to offer workshops, retreats and classes and to participate in community.
I very much appreciate being able to visit sacred sites – this is a big part of what I feel called to. Many times I feel that I’m making “last rounds.” I feel so strongly that I’m on a journey of completion.
Ten years ago I was on a ski vacation (I love to ski!) with friends, Matthew and Marilyn, who had just had their numerology done and it had been a great revelation to them. Numerology was something I hadn’t really thought much about. My friends insisted that they do my numerology and so they asked for my full name and birthday.
In numerology, each letter has a value. A is 1, B is 2 and so on. It turns out that my name, Jennifer Helen Hadley, comes out to be the master number 99. When you add the 9 and 9 together you get 18 which, when added together is a 9.
My birthday adds up to a 9 as well. When you add my name and birthday together you get another 9. I’m all 9’s.
9 is concerned with global healing and wisdom, with humanity’s awakening awareness, and that’s certainly me. It’s also the number of completion. It’s the last stop before going back to zero. 9 also has some other amazing factors about it.
Numerology isn’t something I’ve studied, but it’s shown me another layer of the extraordinary patterns encoded into each moment that support our life of Love. Every moment has a huge web of Love enfolding us, and if we give up our attachments to our view of life, we can have the eyes to see and the ears to hear the clear view of Love in each moment.
Life is interesting. Nothing is random. Understanding the complete and careful nature of God in and through every aspect of our life has helped me to give up being so controlling and has helped me to relax into spiritual support from everywhere, visible and invisible.
Back to yesterday in Warsaw. My host was very insistent that I do some sightseeing with her in the morning and I was VERY resistant. I had wished to catch up on many emails, to pack for our trip to Krakow and to have a leisurely morning without conversation. I was after some quiet time. Since I generally don’t feel called to do sight seeing, particularly in an information gathering way, I was feeling that I wished to keep to my original plan. I thought I knew what was best. Yet, I didn’t wish to offend my host and refuse – she was very insistent, so I was going along with her tour.
Fortunately, God has a plan beyond my plan and for this I’m grateful. We went with two other friends to tour the Warsaw Ghetto. I hadn’t thought that would be the tour. My host took me to see the memorials to the more than 300,000 jews who were effectively captured, imprisoned and killed during World War II in the Warsaw Ghetto.
We got to make prayers there. It was SO powerful and moving and I knew that was why I had come to Warsaw and I might have missed it because I thought we were going to be doing a different kind of sight seeing.
In order to be the happy learner, I must rely upon my NOT knowing what anything is for. I am grateful, I didn’t insist on things being my ego’s way. Thank GOD! I have a bit of willingness so I don’t miss the point of things!
Many times I’ve learned the same lessons in different ways and I am grateful that I can have more clarity every day. Thank God!
I often share experiences like this on my weekly ACIM radio show. There’s a constant stream of opportunity to have more clarity and I rejoice that I’m aware and I am grateful that I am so grateful to be a happy learner. This is what living A Course in Miracles means to me.
And still, I aspire to stop learning and simply remember the truth that is my liberation from having to learn. My goal is awakening, the full restoration of my right mind. I keep this in front of me every day and I’ve learned not to mind learning, and instead to be the happy learner. I had many years as the resentful and regretful learner and being the happy learner is Joy-full. I can remember to laugh now.
Yesterday morning, I finally let go of my resistance and went all in and the miracle was revealed. In my journey of completion, I find I’m called to various places simply to pray and help move the energy of the past, lack, limitation and stagnation. This is a great gift to me. I am so grateful where once I used to be a pain in the butt to everyone in my life, now I can bring and share a blessing. I’m not playing small anymore and it’s a great relief.
My invitation to you is to see if there’s somewhere you’re blocking your giving and receiving blessings because you’ve already made up your mind what things are for.
Today’s prayer is for Being the Joy-full Learner.
I had a wonderful experience of this same learning about not knowing what anything is for some years ago that was a great learning and very much the same lesson.
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Each day offers many blessings and the greatest blessing of all is that we can stop learning through painful experience and start remembering through our willingness.
Now is the time for us to make the decision to be the Joy-full learner. We make the decision, we quit complaining, cultivate our willingness, and we’re on our way! Today’s the day!
Changing our lives and healing our minds is so much easier when we are the two or more gathered together for the same purpose. To this end, I’m offering another Spiritual Counseling Training Intensive in May and my Stop Playing Small retreat right before, at the end of April.
I haven’t offered a Stop Playing Small Retreat in for a couple of years, so if this interests you, please join! We practice and learn Self-Love in Spiritual Community and it’s a powerful healing and life-changing experience. We can accomplish a lot in a short time when we come together focused on transformation!
My Spiritual Counseling Training Intensive is not just a professional training, if you read the things people have said about how their lives change as a result, you will see that this is an opportunity for deep personal healing. You can combine the Stop Playing Small Retreat with the Spiritual Counseling Training Intensive and get a discount! Plus we have payment plans and early bird specials on right now!
Real change, lasting transformation and healing is available. If you’re willing, let’s do it together!
We’re an expanding global spiritual community of prayerful people willing to be co-workers with God. We’re waking up together and finding freedom in our hearts. I’m so grateful for this!
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