As I write this, I’m having breakfast in Warsaw, Poland. My first day here. I’m traveling with my beautiful teacher, Venerable Dhyani Ywahoo who is such an inspiration to me. I am with her so that I can participate in her teachings here and also to be able to meet my prayer partners in this area. This is such a blessing.
Across this sweet dining room at the small hotel I’m staying at, others are having breakfast and I notice some things. One woman is eating, sitting at the edge of her seat, as though she cannot possibly relax and enjoy her meal. Another spoke to me across the room to share his complaints about having to go to the American Embassy to renew his passport and saying this would be an unpleasant start of his day.
Anticipating unpleasantness is a habit I used to have. It’s the mindset of someone who frequently feels life is against them.
I understand it. I used to feel that life was a bit like a continuous siege that I had to be prepared for all of the time. Now, I am more interested in anticipating miracles, magnificence and manifesting marvelous opportunities to be truly helpful, to give and receive Love.
When I first landed in Germany, the instructions I had were clear about finding the train station at the Dusseldorf airport and taking a train to my destination. In the airport, it was not so clear. The signs for trains led me to the wrong train. There was no information booth, no one to ask. After an hour of dragging my bags around, I finally figured it out. What’s wonderful is that I didn’t let it bother me much, even though I missed my train and had to take a much longer journey on a slower train. It all worked out just fine.
The reason I feel okay about things as they are is because I don’t know what anything is for. I only know that EVERYTHING works together for my good, and that there are no exceptions, except in the opinion of the ego which holds no sway over me. Get thee behind me, ego!
Yesterday, I had an 11 hour train journey. I shared the last 6 hours with 2 men who were in my 1st class compartment with me. As we arrived in Warsaw they helped me with my bags. A wonderful blessing! However, I didn’t realize that that there were two stops in Warsaw, so I got off with them at the wrong stop.
Just as the doors were closing so the train could leave for the next stop, I realized that I was at the wrong stop. Thank you, Angels! I saw a conductor and even though I was speaking English and he was far down the track, my pantomime indicated my error and he helped me get the door open, my bags back on the train to go to the next stop, which was mine.
At the Warsaw station, I was concerned about navigating it all to find the driver who was to meet me across the street from the station. It would be after 11pm. I wished that there would be someone to help me, but train stations don’t have porters anymore, even the really big ones in major cities. Those ways are gone now that everyone has roller bags. (BTW, I prefer to hire someone to transport my bags. For a small fee, I can help someone have a job and make my life easier. I also like to pay a bit more for gas in order to give a job to someone to pump it for me.)
I was just realizing that the lift was broken at the Warsaw train station when 3 people came up to me and asked me if I was Jennifer Hadley! Friends of friends had found me and were there to help me and drive me to my hotel. The driver had been cancelled so these friends of my teacher could help me. (Venerable travelled by car as she was making a stop along the way.)
My wish to have help with my bags, and to connect with my teacher’s Polish friends and students was realized without me having to do anything. This is how God works!
I knew I would have a wonderful hotel and I do! I arrived at midnight and the room was wonderful. After the desk manger left and went to bed, I realized there was no bathtub, and I really wished for a bath. This morning I asked to change rooms, and it was no problem at all. I have a WONDERFUL bathtub now! Woo hoo!
I wished for a great cup of coffee after not having had a really good cup since I last made one for myself. Here at the hotel, they roast their own! Fantastic! Espresso! Yes-O!
I feel so very blessed.
Part of WHY and HOW I feel so blessed is this:
I’ve learned to put it out to the Universe, to Spirit, to the Higher Holy Spirit Self, what I would like. I used to ask the wrong questions. Instead of asking for what I would like, and releasing all attachment, I would hold onto what I thought was missing, lacking and wrong. It made my life an series of disappointments.
I encourage you to look at where you might be asking a non-helpful question and how you can change it.
Instead of asking “why is it so hard for me?” We can ask “how can I get in the flow of Love and share with everyone?”
I made this video a couple of years ago about my experience of learning to approach life differently. I hope it’s meaningful for you. If you like it will you please leave a comment at youtube? Thank you!!
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