I’m in Scottsdale, Arizona for the Teacher & Minister Training retreats with Jon Mundy and it’s been FULL on and so much fun! I feel so blessed to be able to do this work with others. For so long, I felt so much on my own.
One of the ways I experienced the pain of separation thinking was feeling that I was so much worse than my other spiritual friends. I see that play out for a lot of others. Often, one of the first things that happens for people on one of my retreats is the realization that they’re not the only one who feels that way.
So often, many of us feel that we’re worse than others and so many of us feel that we’re simply not truly lovable and so we have to present a false front. Then, of course, we don’t feel truly loved because we’re not being authentic.
It’s a journey to be able to be authentic!
How can we possibly be authentic and allow Love in, when we are identified with a false ego self that we don’t like? For myself, I was completely convinced that my ego personality was my true self. Like the Dr. Jekyl and Mr. Hyde characters, I was convinced that Mr. Hyde was the real me that I had to keep hidden because he was capable of the worst kinds of crimes.
As I began to do the inner work that I now share in my Finding Freedom From Fear ACIM bootcamp classes, I began to discover that my true self was actually very loving and caring. The more I did the work of letting go the attraction to judging everything, and the habit of separating constantly, I began to feel more and more like my TRUE Self.
This was a HUGE relief. It’s SO very much easier to be our true self.
My true self was not mean, unkind, judgmental, attacking, hurtful, weak, sniveling, foolish or any other negative thing.
My true self is loving, compassionate, caring, open, available, harmonious and FREE. It’s such a relief to discover that and to let the LOVE in.
So often, when folks are showing up to do this inner healing work with me, they remind me of myself. I felt such deep inner pain that I was hiding from the world. I felt that it would come out “sideways” through tirades, or imploding into self-medication. I rarely felt that I was being authentic. I had a fear that if my “true” self was seen people would run screaming for the hills like they do from Mr. Hyde.
I had NO IDEA how much energy it took to keep my Mr. Hyde under control. It was that pain that was eating up my life and driving me to self-medicate.
I discovered that I had SO MUCH to learn about Love and that Love itself would teach me if I would let it. Love is the healer of all discord, and all suffering. I know that now. The ego cannot conceive of it or imagine it.
When I was identified with a small, selfish, and separate self, I couldn’t ever have believed that Love would heal my life. Loving myself and being in the flow of Love with others, that’s what did it. Being in the flow of Love with EVERYONE not just “my” loved ones.
In Masterful Living class the other day, we were deeply contemplating the karmic lessons that we’d learned in this lifetime. We were having breakout sessions and some of the men came back to the larger group having reached the conclusion that the main karmic lesson for them was remembering to Love.
It hit me so strongly! This is the topic for a one-time free class to follow up on the recent 5-day Challenge that we just did! Woo hoo!
For so, so long I resisted following my guidance. I was so reluctant to take even the most basic steps I knew to do. And that’s why I focus almost my entire energy now on supporting people who feel stuck playing small, living in the shadow, NOT following their guidance, feeling sick, and tired and who have a deep yearning.
It’s such a huge relief to be in the flow of Love after fighting it and feeling unworthy for so long. It’s such a huge relief to be ourselves and to never feel bad and wrong anymore. Remembering to Love is the way we get there.
Let’s remember to Love more fully and more consistently and let’s do it together!
Remembering to Love
How to Choose Love Rather than Punishment & Self-medication
Thursday, August 23
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