I remember the very first weekend of ministerial school at the Ernest Holmes Institute. It was this time of year, in 2001. It was right around 9/11. We were on a retreat at Casa de Maria in Santa Barbara, California and Rev. Nirvana Gayle was the leader. I was so excited because I thought we’d be entering into a mystical training following in the footsteps of Ernest Holmes who inspired me so much.
That turned out not to be the case. It was a very intellectual program, with no study of Holmes or mysticism. However, because of my experiences, I now teach in a very different way from that and it has been tremendously successful and I’m so grateful for that.
That first weekend, two things stand out to me. One is that we were told that of the thirty or so people at the retreat only about five of us would be ministers 10 years from graduation. That statistic shocked me. I couldn’t imagine not being a minister. I couldn’t imagine going through all that training – pre-practitioner, practitioner, and then ministerial school – 9 years total – and then not being a minister.
In my senior year, I switched from the Holmes Institute to the Agape school, as Agape withdrew from what is now called Centers for Spiritual Living. I graduated in 2006. There was 1 other graduate with me and he’s still a minister too.
I love ministry. It is definitely my calling. I so love being able to support people from being caught in their ego identity, illness, and despair over their life, relationships, careers, and bodies into becoming miracle minded and truly living the principles of A Course in Miracles. Quite literally, it thrills me! I feel so grateful and so blessed each and every day.
I feel like I have cracked the code on how to live the life you really desire and I see more and more people doing it around me. The reports of folks in my classes and of how their families are healing all around them is my favorite thing. It’s so completely not rocket science, but it does require real willingness to be vigilant over their thoughts.
Which is why this work is not for everyone. Many people are simply not willing to be vigilant over their thoughts. They imagine that it’s too hard. It’s not. It is demanding though. But being miserable is demanding too. Thinking your life is hard and you’re not worthy  of Love is even more demanding and has NO benefits. I know, I used to live in that space.
The other thing that I recall from that first weekend of ministerial school is we were asked to tell the group what we were most grateful for. That was easy for me. I am SO VERY grateful for my awareness. I am grateful that I’m ever more aware of my ability to choose. I don’t have to suffer unless I choose to. We can rise above the battlefield of ego consciousness. We really can.
Cultivating the ability to GENUINELY be aware of our thoughts is to living a miraculous life what stretching and exercising are to have a healthy body. Many people satisfy themselves with reading about spirituality and listening to audios about spirituality. They don’t break a sweat. There’s no real exercise in it.
It’s like getting a gym membership, putting on your exercise outfit, going to the gym and watching everyone else workout while reading a book about what they’re doing and then listening to audio about what they did and how they did it. It’s armchair spirituality. We can have gained without pain, but we cannot grow without doing the inner work.
That’s why having a great trainer to go with you, who keeps you company and makes it fun is so helpful. Having a workout posse to join with you is even better. That’s why I organize my classes the way I do. To make it fun, and get it done. For real.
We all have a personal trainer in the Higher Holy Spirit Self, but you have to be willing to do what the trainer advises. And that personal trainer that we ALL have, is always  telling us to be loving to ourselves because we are worthy of Love. Every one of us. That is always true and never changes. All are worthy.
Unworthiness is the most chronic illness that people have in this world.
It attacks us mentally and emotionally – but only if we agree. It has no power if we don’t agree.
Symptoms of unworthiness are:
- Not trusting intuition
- Second-guessing yourself
- Attacking yourself
- Letting people take advantage of you
- People pleasing
- Giving to others and doing for others in order to get approval
- Hiding and isolating
- Letting people treat you poorly
- Feeling unappreciated
I had all of these. I see very little of this happening anymore. What a relief !
If you’ve had enough of these things in your life – consider accepting my gift. I’m offering a LIVE VIDEO 2.5-hour workshop intensive next Saturday with a replay on Sunday and it’s my gift to you. There’s no cost, but you do have to register. Click here to register now. 
Worthiness Workshop 
Saturday or Sunday
September 28 or 29th
Los Angeles, 12pm ♥ Chicago, 2pm ♥ New York, 3pm ♥ London, 8pm
♥ Germany, 9pm ♥ Sydney, 5am (next day) ♥ Hong Kong, 3am (next day)
This workshop is for people who are interested in making a change. When you register, I’ll send you a worksheet that you’ll need to set aside some time to fill out and bring to the workshop to be able to get the benefits.
I’m all in  for YOU. Will you meet me and we’ll have some fun with our healing together?
Please invite a friend or two and do the worksheets together. Invite your ACIM Study Group and let’s do this together! You can also listen to the last two weeks of Conquering Unworthiness episodes of my podcast. Click here to listen now and get the transcripts too! 
Transformation is REALLY fun and it’s also a huge relief when we do it together. It’s such a relief to let go of the false identity and stand in the beauty of our true nature. We truly can be helpful and we can teach only Love. I’m going for it. Come join me!
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Let’s make the most of every opportunity for our healing and awakening and remember to laugh when we forget. Every day I offer my shot of Spiritual Espresso. I write spiritual inspiration and record a prayer for our healing. Prayer is a powerful tool for our liberation. Please pray with me today. We use technology to transcend time and space and deepen our spiritual practice and connect with each other. Our spiritual practice is our path of liberation. And that’s beautiful to share!
We’re all on a journey of developing trust and faith  and there’s so much help for us in the invisible. We’re never alone. I Love you and I thank God for you. We bless each other with our willingness to rise in Spirit and come back into our right minds. Together we’re answering our call to BE the Love. YES!