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I’ve had so much to forgive myself for. Good heavens!
I used to believe that it was OK to manipulate people with my moods and attitudes. I grew up thinking that having an attitude or getting into a mood was a way to effectively control and manipulate people to have them pay attention to me and do what I wanted. When I felt powerless, I’d find some way to feel more powerful. At the very least, I used to think I can push people’s buttons and agitate them. It was the misuse of “power.”
I learned that if I was angry, people would try to appease me.
I learned that if I was cold and distant, people would inquire about what was wrong and try to help me.
I learned that if I was sad, people might comfort me.
Mostly I learned that manipulating people made me feel sick energetically.
In all of my relationships, I found that others were manipulating me as much as I was manipulating them. It all felt SUPER uncomfortable, but that’s just the way it was. Everybody did it.
Forgiveness has taken me from the darkness to the Light.
I have had to forgive myself for so much, and actually doing that has been such a gift to me that it has changed my ENTIRE life!
Here’s a miracle:
As I began to achieve some spiritual maturity, I realized that manipulating others for any reason, or in any way, was a source of my suffering and theirs. It lacks authenticity and discourages intimacy – two things I deeply value.
Here’s a miracle:
I dropped the controlling and manipulating behaviors, and now I notice that I rarely encounter anyone who tries to pull that behavior with me. If they do, I have compassion because I know it comes from a place of deep wounding and suffering and I’m interested in Love, which is our healer.
I invite you to take a look at where you give yourself permission to manipulate people with your moods and attitudes. It creates more trouble than it could ever be worth. The worst fall-out is that it will degrade your personal sense of self-esteem and worthiness.
Having a loving relationship builds self-esteem and worthiness, and that’s a far better investment of your precious energy and that’s miraculous.
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