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How I Overcame My Weakness

Sunday, August 9th, 2020

Today I’m joining Jon Mundy in his monthly program on A Course in Miracles. We’ll be sharing about the principles of ACIM – a favorite topic for both of us. The other morning, we had a talk about what we’d like to share today. It’s always great to talk with an ACIM friend and share what we love about The Course.

We were discussing the Characteristics of God’s Teachers as laid out in Chapter IV in the Manual for Teachers. I so often go back to those characteristics and what Jesus has to say about them. There are such simplicity and clarity in those ten characteristics. They truly are a guide for living. In some ways, we could say that they’re a summation of the entire workbook.

Over my many years of sharing ACIM with my beloved friends, I’ve come to see that many people read those Characteristics and feel like they understand them, more or less, and that’s all that’s needed. I don’t find many people who take them as a guide for better living or as a “prescription” for ego attachments.

AND YET, that’s precisely what these few pages are – a guide for better living and a prescription for how to heal what ails us.

In my classes – Finding Freedom, and Masterful Living, I suggest that folks read the first Characteristic section on “Development of Trust” once a day for a week and once a week after that. I find that section both unsettling and comforting at the same time.

We’re told that we’re going to have to give up all ego attachments, and if we don’t do it willingly, then Spirit will, essentially, take whatever we’re attached to from us (or show us how painful the attachment is in some other way).

We don’t have to give up the things we’re attached to, but we absolutely must give up the attachment or suffer. It’s kind of like this – if I know that I’m holding onto something sharp, that I have a strong attachment to, and it’s cutting me, which is painful and bloody, and leads to infection, possibly amputation and systemic breakdown, I can let go of MY ATTACHMENT to that sharp object and realize that it’s MY ATTACHMENT that’s causing the cutting, bleeding infection that is my suffering.

I may not need to give up the item, I may be able to find out how to hold onto it with no suffering, but I cannot find that way of holding it until I give up my attachment.

I can give up the attachment OR, I can keep suffering, but Spirit will likely find a way to rip that thing out of my hand anyway.

So, I’d rather give up the attachment of my own free will. I may get to keep the thing I have an attachment to if I can hold it without attachment.

Here’s an example: I used to have an attachment to kettle corn. Perhaps that sounds both familiar and strange at the same time, but I did have an attachment to it.

When I went to services at Agape every Sunday, singing in the choir for 11 years, and on Wednesday nights too, I’d walk through the parking lot to get into the building and there was a fellow selling fresh made kettle corn. You could smell it as you were walking towards the building.

I had an attachment to that kettle corn. I just loved it. It’s especially good freshly made, still a bit warm. Yum. I would get some once or twice a week. I felt it was a weakness. It felt addictive compulsive.

For years, I was in this attachment to the kettle corn. I called it kettle crack corn because it was like crack cocaine in a way.

I decided to hand over to the Higher Holy Spirit Self this “addiction” to the kettle crack corn. I put Spirit in charge.

I asked that the attachment be removed.

I was choosing Freedom.

Next thing I knew, it was a few months later and I realized I’d forgotten all about the kettle corn. I had been going to Agape for months without even thinking about the corn. I was free.

I surrendered my attachment to Spirit and Spirit took it from me.

I’ve been able to enjoy kettle corn since then, but it’s not craving and I don’t think about it even once per year. I can’t remember the last time I got some kettle corn. I’m just not interested in it anymore.

It was never about the kettle corn. Through self-forgiveness, I released the attachment to being addictive compulsive with anything. All that faded right out of my life, and now I help others to do the same thing.

I’ve learned that I have to live and apply these teachings, truly embodying them in order to have the healing. Reading and studying isn’t healing because healing doesn’t happen in the intellect, it happens in the mind that’s in our heart.

And our willingness is ALL that’s required.
I was willing.
I put Spirit in charge.
Spirit cannot fail.
And so I was successful.
I was successful the minute I decided to put Spirit in charge.

That’s my story and I’m sticking to it!

TODAY, you can join me and my friends, Lisa Natoli, Omiyomi Ibuemi, and more friends on zoom. Lisa Natoli is a dear friend and a great ACIM teacher and Omiyomi for about 20 years. We’re coming together to share our inspiration in many ways. We’ll have a spiritual celebration together with message and music – we call it Sundays With Spirit. Please invite your family! If you can’t join us, you can catch the replay! Because we’re going to be live on video, you’ll have to register to get the detail. All are welcome, there’s no charge, but you do have to register unless you’ve already registered in the past.

When you register, you’ll also get easy access to past services with Lisa Natoli, Jon Mundy, David Hoffmeister, Maureen Muldoon, Corinne Zupko, Maria Felipe, Frances Xu, Jimmy Twyman and more. If you’ve already registered for a previous Sunday – you don’t need to register again, you’ll get a reminder with the details automatically.

I look forward to our gathering TODAY. It means so much that we can join together and celebrate Spirit together.

BTW If you’d like to get some inspiration, and also support this ministry, you can sign up for daily inspirational text messages. You can make a one-time donation for as little as $1 or set up a recurring donation to support this ministry as an active tither. These texts are such a blessing to me – I get them every day and I love them. They always seem to come with the perfect timing! Divine timing!


First Responder

Monday, August 3rd, 2020

I am a first responder.
I AM is a first responder.

In my experience, in my relationships, in my community, I choose to be a first responder to the cry for Love.

We can be first responders, responding to the insanity of the world with a voice of Love and compassion.

We don’t have to MAKE anything happen – that’s not our job. Our response-ability is to hold the loving view, the right-minded view, and to be kind, loving and supportive.

Right now, although my spiritual practice is all day long, in many forms, the most important thing, as always, is to be kind and caring. Extending Love is the #1 thing for us to put our attention on each moment of each day.

When we’re extending Love, we’re being a healing presence.

And when we’re extending Love and compassion, we’re being truly helpful.
Which means we’re living our purpose.

If we wonder what our purpose is, it’s not complicated or hard to find: Be kind.

Sometimes being kind is the hardest thing in the world to do.
The more it stretches us, the more it’s worth the effort.

Let me be grateful for the pain of the strain to be kind in challenging circumstances as it reminds me how much gain there is for my soul.

We can remember too, how sometimes being kind seems just the opposite. I think of Elvis Costello’s song about being “cruel to be kind.” It’s a paradox sometimes.

There are times when it’s most helpful to point out to someone that they are fantasizing about something, and it’s not helpful to them.

There are times when someone is about to do something cruel and the kindest thing is to interrupt them.

Cultivating the ability to respond with kindness instead of judgment – that’s where I focus a good deal of my attention.

No judgments also mean no attachments.

It’s a rigorous practice, but when I do it with kindness it feels very nurturing – which it is.

Let’s be first responders, responding to every situation with Love, kindness and compassion. This way we absolutely KNOW we’re always in the right place at the right time, and we can feel the strength of that. What a blessing!


We Can Rise

Monday, July 6th, 2020

In my Masterful Living Course it’s common for folks to share about how difficult things were in their relationships before they had the tools of transformation. For many who start with me in my Finding Freedom Spiritual Bootcamp, they make a shift and they never go back. For me, most of my relationships just keep getting better and stronger. It’s a continuous healing and spiraling up, but I haven’t always felt that way. Just the opposite.

I used to spend much of my time in relationships affirming what I did NOT want, and what I did NOT like and drawing painful conclusions that I’d just keep affirming again and again.

I used to regularly consider the idea of never speaking to any of them again. That idea was on a loop in my head for decades. How did I get it out? That’s what I focused on sharing in my classes now. It’s what I share about every week in my podcast.

As A Course in Miracles tells us, our relationships are the very best tool we have for transforming our mind.

It does take a great willingness.
And it so much easier to do it with a group of like-minded souls.

I used to crash and burn so often.
I used to give up so easily.

When I think about it, it’s so crazy that I had the discipline to hold on to a grudge for decades, but not to fee myself from the suffering it caused.

I’d say “I forgive” but I didn’t really mean it because I’d hold onto the judgment and keep energizing it. What I really was HOPING for was that if I said, I FORGIVE, the pain would stop.

Now, I’m SO GRATEFUL, GRATEFUL, GRATEFUL, for my experience! Why?

Because I went so low, I can rise so high!

Now, when others are telling me about their challenges, I can really use what I’ve learned to help others rise out of the hole of helplessness that I used to feel.

Yes, we can RISE out of the hole.

We don’t have to climb or dig.
We can rise.

With great willingness we can be lifted and carried.

It’s all about NOT going it alone anymore.
Suffering in semi-silence, and feeling alone was my thing.

I really didn’t know where to go or what to do in order to rise up. I had to figure it out. I had to rely on Spirit, it just took me a very long time to be willing.

This is a time of ancient patterns coming up to the surface with intensity and healing is happening in our hearts and miracles are demonstrating everywhere. This is the reason why we’re here at this time. To do our own inner work, to let the past go and bring benefit to all humanity.

We have what it takes!

Spirit cannot and does not fail.

We only fail when we go alone, furthering the belief in separation.

As Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr. said, we succeed when we’re co-workers with God.

That’s how we rise up and find the better way.
It’s always there for us when we’re willing to see with the eyes of Love.

Just yesterday, someone told me how my Finding Freedom From Fear class was the turning point for them in their relationships and in how they felt about themselves. If you’re ready for a turning point, please consider joining us!

Finding Freedom From Fear spiritual bootcamp with ACIM Principles starts TODAY!

If you’d like support in doing this work of letting go of the past and being that impetus for healing in your family and in your workplace without getting discouraged and giving up, please consider taking my Finding Freedom From Fear spiritual bootcamp and joining with other like-minded souls who are doing the same work.

I find that when we do the work together, we get there faster and we laugh a lot more. It’s so much easier when we peel the layers of painful patterns together. Easier, faster, more Love, more Light, more fun, that’s the way for me!

COME BACK! Have you already taken Finding Freedom from Fear Spiritual Bootcamp?
There’s a special offer to repeat right NOW – Join us before Thursday and it’s only $44 per month – join for two months and take advantage of all the new aspects of the class and get the support of the small group in the Freedom Circle!

If you have a yearning right now, to go deeper and fly higher, to open your heart and live the love like never before, come join me. My Finding Freedom From Fear Bootcamp with ACIM Principles may be your answered prayer.

Many people find that their life, their relationships, their health and wealth is profoundly changed because they deepen their spiritual practice in this class.

I’m recording ALL NEW CLASSES.
This is going to be SO good because I am ON FIRE!
Trust your intuition! If you’ve been thinking about doing my Finding Freedom From Fear Bootcamp for a while, but just haven’t been ready, consider booking an exploratory call with one of the spiritual counselors. They can answer all your questions and you’ll know what’s best for you. Book an exploratory call today!


New Earth

Friday, May 29th, 2020

Here in the Green Mountains of Vermont, the dandelions are all but taking over.  I’ve never seen so many dandelions!  Yes, they’re a highly invasive weed, but they are SO beneficial for the bees!

Right now, we need to be super supportive of the bees – as life is very challenging for them these days and we need bees for our survival.  Planting in the garden in Maine and in Vermont, I like to plant things that are especially supportive of butterflies and bees.  They give us so much, let’s give back to them.

If you’re planting in the garden you can specifically ask for some plants that are most supportive to those wonderful pollinators, bees and butterflies and they will bring so much benefit to the garden.  Who doesn’t love to see butterflies in the garden?

It’s true that world pollution is much affected by our sheltering in place.  Just look at these pictures of the difference it’s made in New Delhi, India!

AND isn’t amazing that the increase in air quality affects the impact of the Covid-19 virus?

The less pollution, the healthier we are and the less susceptible to the virus.  Wow!

Plus, right now, the sun, around which we orbit, has gone into “solar minimum.”  Which means there’s far less solar activity right now, which is HUGELY supportive of our need to cool the planet down.

A Course in Miracles teaches us that our thoughts have an effect on the world.  So many people are very intent on reducing pollution, reducing global warming, and caring for the environment and this virus is actually helping with that.  It’s the silver lining in a very dark cloud.

Let’s use our mind very consciously and work together to affirm the good we’d like to see is occurring.  Together, let’s know that we’re calling forth the world we’d like to see.

The new heaven and the new earth can be our reality.

Let us make it so!


And let’s help the butterflies and the bees so they can help us!


Healing Relationship Fear Triggers

Tuesday, February 4th, 2020

We’re in February now, and this is the month that I devote all the episodes of my podcast to relationships. My topic today is “Healing the Relationship Fear Triggers” and it’s such a good one! (By the way, you can easily search in the archive of my podcast for episodes on relationship – there are SO many.)

Getting triggered in relationship is normal, and it’s pretty constant for most people.

Each one of these triggers is a point where we could choose permanent and lasting healing – or we can repeat the same patterns and have more of the same experience.

When we get triggered, this is the time to choose again and choose something different. After all, we’re never upset for the reason we think and, in truth, we really don’t know what anything is for. These are the most helpful teachings of A Course in Miracles.

One of the greatest gifts we can give ourselves and share with others is the ability to be calm and have patience. This doesn’t mean denying how we feel. We can learn to feel our feelings without exploding and without dumping them all over people, AND without stuffing them.

Once I realized that each and every upset COULD be a point of healing if I ALLOWED it to be, I started to approach my life in an entirely different way. I made healing a priority. I made Peace, calm and patience a priority.

It does take a real willingness, and it does take courage to break from the habits of the past. We have knee-jerk reactions because we haven’t healed the underlying beliefs.

Our work isn’t behavior modification. Let’s not settle for that. We’re going for a healing of the root cause, whatever it is, so that we can be completely free of the triggers forever.

If we settle for behavior modification, we’re giving up on the profound healing that’s available to us. When we settle, we’re not in that Partnership with the Higher Holy Spirit Self.

When we feel connected to Spirit, then we can have the courage to heal. We can put Spirit in charge.

I used to get SO triggered and I’d say the meanest things.
I used to shut people out and punish them for triggering me.
I used to attack people and then feel ashamed.

These patterns are THICK, they are intense – AND they can dissolve and resolve so easily when we trust Spirit to heal them.

It’s never too late to have a happy childhood. We can have healing in all of the consequences of our wrong decisions, and the wrong decisions of others. It’s a great investment of our trust and faith. When we really trust, we have real results.


To Them That Have

Monday, February 3rd, 2020

“To them that have, even more shall be given.
To them that have not, even what they have shall be taken away.”
Matthew 13:12

Jesus spoke in parables, in stories, to help those around Him understand the deeper meanings of His teachings and how they applied to their lives. When we can see it in our own life, it makes more sense. That’s why I like writing this “Daily Shot of Spiritual Espresso” each day. It’s part of my own spiritual practice of understanding my life experiences.

This teaching of Jesus about the “haves” and the “have-nots” has been quite valuable to me.

I’ve come to view it this way:

Those that have a consciousness of Love and compassion, of giving and sharing, to them even more shall be given. Those who freely give (key emphasis on FREELY) will be supported at all times.

Those who have not a consciousness of Love and compassion, of giving and sharing, to them even even what they have will be taken away.

I think of the times when it felt like I had nothing, when there was no money in my wallet or my bank account, and all I had was debt, or when I felt emotionally bereft and lacking in value as a person – in those times, I still had something to share if only a smile and a bit of comfort.

To one who has nothing, a smile and a bit of comfort are great riches. Truly.

There is nothing worse than feeling down and out AND alone.

And that’s part of why I started offering these writings more than 20 years ago.

Every day, we can support each other, and bring illumination. No matter how down we feel, someone somewhere feels worse than we do and has less than we do.

We can pray for that person who is struggling even if we don’t know their name. I pray for them and I pray for you, and I invite you to pray for all of us. We all rise on this tide of Love. Now is the perfect time to pray.

When we pray, we are declaring to the Universe that we have the consciousness of Love, compassion and sharing. Prayer is the most powerful technology there is. Let’s ignite in prayer together!


Not Ashamed Anymore!

Sunday, February 2nd, 2020

I’m a fan of David Hawkins. I read his book Power vs Force back in the 90s. One thing I remember from it that struck me was his information about the Map of Consciousness and that the lowest thought we can have is one of shame.

Like most people, I had real issues with shame for a long time. In fact, when I would be feeling particularly clean and clear spiritually, that’s when I’d feel magnetically pulled to engage in some form of self-medication that would leave me feeling out of control and ashamed.

That was how I learned that self-sabotage is for the purpose of slowing our spiritual progress. It’s very effective. A good jolt of shame will shift everything in a New York minute.

Next thing we know, we’re on the hamster wheel of thinking, “I’m never going to get ahead.”

I’ve watched people slow their spiritual growth down to a snail’s pace and keep it that way for year after year, and self-medication is a perfect tool for that.

Shame doesn’t just happen. It’s the result of judgment. People can’t shame us. They can try, but it doesn’t work unless we agree.

We shame ourselves to keep playing small and punish ourselves.

Then we can collapse into thoughts like, “spiritual growth works for other people, but not for me. No matter what I do, I just can’t make progress. I always stumble and fall.”

It’s our self-judgment that keeps us playing small.
As long as we’re confining ourselves with our judgments, we don’t have to take any risks.

It’s the illusion of safety.

The pain of playing small drives us to more self-medication.
Then we feel ashamed again.
And our feelings feel awful.
So we self-medicate to diminish our feelings and drown them out.
We numb ourselves.
And then we feel ashamed.
We judge ourselves as losers.
And then we we self-medicate to diminish our feelings and drown them out.
We numb ourselves.
And the hamster wheel becomes where we live.

Shame is the lowest vibrational thought or feeling we can have.

And yet, there IS a way out.
It requires a willingness to become aware and conscious of our choices.
It requires taking responsibility for our feelings.

This can seem like heavy lifting.
And yet, it is much easier than we think to get out from under the pain of our habits.

I never thought I could get out from under the repeating patterns of shame and self-medication.
I used to feel like I had hit a glass ceiling in my spiritual studies.

I was reading and studying and learning CONSTANTLY, but my spiritual growth felt slow. I decided that it had to be me, I just was especially not good enough to make REAL progress and REAL relief. I felt like a fake. And that would drive me to self-medication. It was such a demoralizing cycle.

And that’s why I talk about it now.
It’s also why I’m offering my Challenge to End My Self-Sabotage and Self-Medication.

This is one of the biggest challenges that people have.
It causes illness and depression.
People feel hopeless because of it.

And all of that can dissolve.
It takes effort.
It’s not magic.
But it’s worth the effort, that’s for sure.

The key is Love.
Loving ourselves is how we heal.
It takes great self-compassion and that is best developed with company. We inspire each other.

Whatever you do, however you choose to heal and to rise-up, don’t allow yourself to wallow in self-pity, self-sabotage and self-medication. There IS a way UP and out.

I know that these tools for healing work, because I’m not ashamed anymore and I’m so grateful for that.

We put Spirit in charge, and Spirit won’t fail.
The only way we can fail is if we put our ego in charge.

When we do this healing work together, it can actually be fun. If you’d like to join me in my Challenge, jump right in! We will welcome you, we’re just getting started!

Living in shame is no way to live. We’re called to be of service. The greatest service we can offer is to show others how we are learning to heal. Our elder brother Jesus is always there one step ahead of us and so we’re never alone. We get one step ahead and we help the one right behind.

I am grateful for this path of healing that we’re on and our ability to develop a spiritual practice that actually heals! Onward and upward, together we rise in Love!


Compassion Helps Healing

Saturday, February 1st, 2020

Have you noticed that there’s all kinds of intensity going on in the world? It’s dramatic! For many of us, that means there’s a desire to tune out, and that means we get triggered, too. It’s a most powerful time to make some lasting changes.

It’s the perfect time to take stock and release what doesn’t serve and replace it with something that does. It’s not just the perfect time, it’s more like an imperative. We’re all being pressured to clean up our act.

In Spirit, we’re all One and, in many ways, as individuals we’re the same, too. I’ve noticed that I’m an entrepreneur, and sharing is my “thing.” I call spiritual entrepreneurs “Light-preneurs.” Day after day, I ask Spirit “What can I do to be more helpful?” I get answers every day. Much of the time it has to do with freeing my own heart and mind.

For so, so long I resisted following my guidance. I was so reluctant to take even the most basic steps I knew to do. And that’s why I focus almost my entire energy now on supporting people who feel stuck playing small, living in the shadow, NOT following their guidance, feeling sick, and tired and who have a deep yearning.

That was me: strong yearning, intense resistance.

It’s such a relief now to be able to really listen and follow. SUCH a relief! It’s like the difference between living in a small dirty and smoky room and living in the wide open spaces, the mountains covered with green and fields of flowers on a beautiful day.

As I write this, I can feel the sense-memory in my body, the feeling of tightness and despair. On a certain level, I so often felt like I was under siege but I didn’t realize it was coming from inside me.

One of the things that was a huge part of that feeling of reluctance and resistance, the playing small, was my battle with self-sabotage in the form of self-medication.

We all are aware of the sense of there being two selves — A Higher Holy Spirit Self and a lower, selfish, small self. I used to feel like they were in a constant battle. The easiest way for the small self to win was to decide to self-medicate.

When I’d self-medicate with food, alcohol, cigarettes, television, or talking on the phone excessively, it was as if I had made a decision to get on the PAIN TRAIN and ride it to the end – which was me falling into exhaustion, collapsing, or passing out from excess. It was as though I had to go all the way to actually hurting myself before I could stop.

Doing this thousands of times over the course of years, I learned a lot. It was a very extensive study of self-sabotage and self-medication. I was the lab rat.

For years it felt demoralizing. I did my self-medication mostly in private, alone and ashamed, because it didn’t feel very spiritual. I was judging myself intensely.

I felt ashamed that I didn’t have more discipline.

When I did have more discipline, I’d choose to self-medicate with over-working, exercising or volunteering. I didn’t feel ashamed when I went that route, but it still was still choosing to play small and live in a stuck place, resisting my natural spiritual growth.

The purpose of self-sabotage and self-medication is to slow down our spiritual growth and awakening. It does a really good job, but let’s not be fooled by it anymore.

Making a decision to do something different is the way out of the hell that is a habit of self-medication. I know this, because that’s where I started.

I decided to stop self-medicating sooooooo many times without success. It didn’t work for me. I just felt more and more and MORE like a failure!

What FINALLY worked for me was to decide to focus on simply making a little bit more loving choices. I decided to actually look at what was going on inside me without judging it, with compassion and kindness. That changed things for me.

Why? Because Love is compassion and understanding.

And Love is ALWAYS healing. Actual Love is always healing. It helps return us to our natural state of mind, which is already perfect.

Love is our healer.
I AM choosing Love.

And that’s why I am offering this gift of this Challenge to End My Self-Sabotage – in order to look at what is really going on with ourselves, self-medication, self-sabotage and our spiritual growth and development. It’s my gift to you. Please come and participate – it’s the perfect time for us to ride that new moon solar eclipse energy into lasting change.

I’ll be inviting you to do some daily inner work with me – and it’s no cost to join us for the first 2 days, because I don’t wish to have anything get in the way of you activating your willingness to stop playing small and deciding to let Love be the healer. Let’s let the Higher Holy Spirit Self do the heavy lifting of figuring out HOW the healing will happen. Let’s ALLOW the healing.

Be in it to win it and we’ll do it together! A tiny bit of willingness is all that’s required.

There’s no charge to participate – we start tomorrow, and if it calls to you, please join us and bring a friend who has this issue! We’re choosing healing TOGETHER!

STARTS TODAY: There’s no charge to participate for this weekend – we start TODAY. if it calls to you, please bring a friend who has this issue! We’re choosing healing TOGETHER!

End My Self-Sabotage
6-Day Challenge
Starts TODAY, Saturday, February 1

Get the Motivation & Support to Free Yourself
From self-medication so You Can Live The Life You Desire!

My gift to you – no cost – come join me!

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Fantasy Leaves A Hangover

Friday, January 31st, 2020

Tomorrow’s a big day! I’m starting my Challenge to End My Self-Sabotage. There’s no charge to participate in the offerings on Saturday and Sunday, and we’re going to focus on self-medication. Please come join me!

One MAJOR form of self-sabotage that’s very common and easy to hide is spending a lot of time in fantasy – something I know a lot about. Not only was this an issue for me, it’s been an issue for many folks in my classes.

Fantasy is a form of self-medication.

People don’t talk much about fantasy as self-medication, but it would be helpful if they did. I thought I’d share about the differences between vision and fantasy. There’s a profound difference between vision and fantasy. I love A Course in Miracles teachings, because they are so helpful. One thing they make clear is that the hero in the fantasy is always the body. If, in your fantasy of having a fabulous career, you envision yourself as a body receiving praise, money, adoration, etc. then you can be sure that’s a fantasy.

In my experience, a vision of sharing my gifts and talents is more focused on how I feel and not at all on what it LOOKS like. In the vision of my success, I feel in the flow of Love. I’m sharing. It’s not about me getting. I’m receiving Divine Guidance and inspiration, and I’m flowing that out into the world through sharing.

Understanding the difference between vision and fantasy is very valuable. One is a valuable tool and the other is a form of self-medication. Vision is a very different energetic than fantasy. Fantasy is a drug for the ego. Vision is a beautiful Divine Insight.

Fantasy leaves us in a hangover of lack. Vision lifts us up into communion with Spirit and a willingness to receive insight and Clarity. What do you prefer? Expansion or addiction? Fantasy is often an addiction.

If you feel like you’re addicted to fantasy, give it all to the Higher Holy Spirit Self and open your mind to what is truly possible – the very HIGHEST spiritual vision. When you align with that vision, only good can come to you!

All things work together for your good.

You’ll be truly amazed at how much better a life of vision feels than making more time for fantasy.

Give up fantasy and you’ll realize what a drain it’s been!

STARTS TOMORROW: There’s no charge to participate for this weekend – we start SATURDAY. If it calls to you, please bring a friend who has this issue! We’re choosing healing TOGETHER!

End My Self-Sabotage
6-Day Challenge

Starts Saturday, February 1

Get The Motivation & Support to Free Yourself
From Self-Medication So You Can Live The Life You Desire!

My gift to you – no cost – come join me!

Click now:
I’m in! SIGN ME UP!


Eliminating Playing Small

Thursday, January 30th, 2020

We continue to be in a time of great intensity. It’s absolutely clear to me that the intensity is going to continue. The pressure we’re all feeling is the pressure that produces the diamond.

We’re returning to our natural pristine state of awareness, and that requires that we become willing to “make a fearless moral inventory,” as they say in 12-Step programs. Not many people are up for that.

The pressure we feel is to support us in letting go of attachments, cravings, aversions, and addictive compulsive tendencies. If we cling to playing small, it’s going to be painful. In other words, to let go of self-sabotaging habits.

Let us not play small anymore.

A Course in Miracles warns us about the fear to look within. “The Holy Spirit will never teach you that you are sinful. Errors He will correct, but this makes no one fearful. You are indeed afraid to look within and see the sin you think is there.”

We play small because we’re convinced we’re sinners and unworthy of our magnificence. We self-medicate to hide from our feelings of shame, guilt and inadequacy. And yet, we are not sinners. We are far from inadequate. We are the Light.

Let us look within to see what is real. Let us look within with kind eyes and compassion.

We are lifted and carried when we ALLOW Spirit to take the load of our self-judgment off of us. Let’s not attach our minds to thinking it’s hard or difficult or dense. It feels quite intense at times, but there are NO levels of difficulty in healing in the illusion.

We stay focused on expanding into living as our true Self, teaching only Love. Eliminating the self-sabotage and recovering all the energy we’ve invested in the habits of playing small enables us to make huge leaps forward. I see it every year in Masterful Living. Real people, real miracles.

Staying firmly on track with a vision of Love and healing requires the fire of DESIRE. It’s the fire of desire that burns away our complacency and despair, the hopelessness and ambivalence. It’s the fire of desire that burns away the attachments to playing small.

If this feels true to you, come join me in my End My Self-Sabotage Challenge this weekend. Spirit will do ALL the work of our awakening if we allow it. Our job is to call it forth and ALLOW it.

We don’t have to figure out HOW. Simply, allow. Don’t give up, give it UP!

Let’s focus on what we’d like rather than how to make it happen. Let’s ALLOW Spirit to do it FOR us.

One life, One Love, One Will.
God’s Will IS our will, for we are One with our Creator.

God’s Will be done in our hearts and minds, on Earth as it is in Heaven!

In my free class End My Self-Sabotage Challenge, we’re cultivating the ability to Love ourselves free of all resistance to living a life of Love, and we’re willing to look at no longer playing small. We’re cultivating the willingness to rise and shine and break out of our cocoons.


Resisting What We Desire Most

Wednesday, January 29th, 2020

Our challenges are always designed to help us. ALWAYS. As it says in A Course in Miracles, “Everything works together for good and there are no exceptions except in the opinion of the ego.”

If we’re resisting our challenges, we’re resisting the growth.

One of the ways we sabotage ourselves is by thinking that things are happening to hurt us or punish us.

Another way we sabotage ourselves is by trying to manipulate and control ourselves and others.

The challenges that rock us to our core are there to help us grow spiritually, and the resistance we feel is resistance to that growth.

We’re resisting the very thing we desire most.

Why? Because what we most desire REQUIRES us to surrender, and we’re just not into that.

We’d rather play small and live a painful and limited life than face the specter of making a growth leap, EVEN THOUGH we yearn for the growth.

We’d like to embody the challenge and change, but we’d rather not have change. It’s a paradox. We can’t have the growth without the change. We’d like to grow without changing.

It’s like the acorn that would like to become an oak tree, but doesn’t wish to change. To the acorn, the idea of being buried in the dark soil, splitting open, and completely transforming is so threatening to its identity as a seed. Yet, it’s a seed that must become a tree to fulfill its destiny.

We’re like the caterpillar that must completely surrender and dissolve its form in order to become the butterfly.

In Masterful Living, we’re working on recognizing that our challenges contain the activation for the growth we most desire. We’re working on releasing the temptation to keep sabotaging ourselves by playing small and living in lack and limitation. It takes courage. And that’s what we’re cultivating – the strong heart to make the change.
The more intense the challenge, the greater the victory over the small self.

When Spirit is in charge, victory is assured! Never give up!

In my free class End My Self-Sabotage Challenge, we’re cultivating the ability to Love ourselves free of all resistance to living a life of Love and we’re willing to look at no longer playing small. We’re cultivating the willingness to rise and shine and break out of our cocoons.


Ending the Cycles of Self-Sabotage

Tuesday, January 28th, 2020

When we’re looking to change our ways and get out of the patterns that are so sticky, addictive, compulsive, and intense, going cold turkey can be intensely challenging. It can also be incredibly helpful. The challenge is that we’re faced with our “stuff.” When we’re looking to shift and clear the pattern, it can be so helpful to take a break from feeding the pattern – and that will mean that our emotional attachments to the pattern will come up in our face – and that’s not easy.

The stuff of our upsets distracts from our goal.

It can be a form of self-sabotage.

When we avoid making changes, it’s sometimes because we don’t want to deal with the emotional intensity that change brings. We’d rather play small than face the challenge. It happens to us all, and in various areas of our lives.

What can be helpful is to realize that we have an inner strength that is FAR beyond our knowing – and many of us have rarely tapped into it. It’s ours for the asking. It comes from our Higher Holy Self. To access it, we must put the Higher Self in charge. It’s a surrender to the highest Wisdom within us. The Wisdom is not outside, it is our true nature.

Here’s a great way to access that power: I AM statements.

I AM is the name of our Higher Holy Self – We share the same Higher Holy Self with everyone – including all the great Ascended Masters. (Jesus, Buddha, Quan Yin, etc.) I AM statements invoke the higher Wisdom of the Holy Self to activate and take over – miracles come from this practice. Try it and see! Some simple I AM statements I use all the time with great effectiveness are:

I AM willing to have a healing now.
I AM is the only intelligence acting in my mind and body.
I AM the Purity of Love.

We often think that the body is addicted to things – addicted to sugar, alcohol, drugs, tobacco, sex, etc. The body isn’t really addicted, it’s the mind. So we heal the addiction in the mind – and the fastest way I know to do it is to give the healing to the Higher Holy Spirit Self. Let Spirit do the healing.

My I AM Presence is healing, resolving and dissolving all attachments, cravings, addictive and compulsive tendencies back to the root cause so that I never experience them again. I AM willing to have a healing now. I AM grateful for my healing now.

The slippery slope is when we say, “I’m just going to have a cookie” and then a bit later we say “Well, that didn’t cause a problem, so I’m going to have a few more cookies.” And then later we say, “Well, I already blew it today, so I might as well have some cake and ice cream and then start again tomorrow.”

Of course there’s nothing wrong with having a cookie, because it’s not about the cookie. It’s about how quickly we give ourselves permission to venture into self-sabotage and that place of “I already blew it, so I might as well blow myself up entirely!”

Self-Love can interrupt the pattern of self-sabotage.

When we truly Love ourselves, we’re able to make decisions that are loving and supportive.

In my free class End My Self-Sabotage Challenge, we’re cultivating the ability to Love ourselves free of all addictive compulsive tendencies.

It’s great that we can shift the energy around our “slippery slope” experiences that provoke so much shame. Everyone has “stuff” they don’t feel good about. Healing the self-judgment helps eliminate more self-sabotage. The main thing is ALWAYS to choose Love rather than judgment, shame and blame.

When we have right motivation for doing anything it IS Self-loving. When we partner UP with the Higher Holy Self and ask the angels to support us, then there’s nothing we can’t do if we truly wish to.

Some people set out to do things and are actually intent on failing so they can say “You see, I don’t have what it takes. Things just don’t work for me.” They like the idea of being “special.”

Why settle for special?

Being magnificent is everyone’s natural state – your magnificence is SO much more worthwhile than being “special.”

It comes down to being mindful of motivation. At first, it seems that it’s tiring to be mindful all day long. That perspective is ego smoke and mirrors. Being mindful is a MUCH easier way to live. Being loving is SO much easier than not being loving – but not if you BELIEVE it’s harder. You will always experience your life in alignment with your beliefs. That’s why we use the spiritual practice of mindfulness to change the unhealthy beliefs.

Changing behavior doesn’t change your life — changing your mind will. Change your choices and the behavior will simply represent your thinking. When people change their behavior without changing their thinking, they usually revert or divert. They revert to the old behavior because the belief was never changed. Or, they divert the energy into some equally self-destructive behavior. It’s so helpful to remember that mindfulness is a healing and loving spiritual practice.

Spiritual practice SAVES time that would otherwise be spent in suffering.
Invest in spiritual practice rather than in suffering.

We can read all the spiritual teachings in the world, but if our spiritual practice is thin, our healing will be equally insubstantial. We are the ones who choose.


Challenges Strengthen Me

Monday, January 27th, 2020

When I first learned to pray the Science of Mind way, I realized that if I attained the Christ awareness then ALL my prayers would be answered.

So I stopped praying for other things and began to focus on really living the Love.

Every day I pray to be more loving, more peaceful, to walk AS the Christ Consciousness. Every day, I pray to be in a place of healing in my own life and everyone I meet and touch. To my great Joy, my answered prayer unfolds before me each day.

I’ve come to recognize that the folks on my path who challenge me with their pain and suffering by acting with judgment instead of kindness, jealousy instead of joy, fear instead of faith, are the ones who give me the opportunity to strengthen my practice. They are my sacred and holy friends who hold the mirror before me and invite me to show my true Self. I’ve learned to be grateful to have the opportunity to see more clearly. I AM determined to see.

I am truly grateful that I can see the Divine Law at work in my life, and recognize the gift of my sacred friends. I’m not yet at a place where I can always be nonreactive. I’m not always 100% loving in my heart at the start. This is precisely why those who challenge me are my answered prayer.

They give me the holy opportunity to strengthen and deepen into the heart of Love, which is my true nature.

Anyone who attacks is momentarily not in their right mind. The gift we can give them is to know the truth about them.

We hold all appearances of lack of compassion with compassion, and Love will heal it all. This is grace.

I aspire to be a Bodhisattva, committed to the awakening of all beings, including anyone who attacks me. I AM committed to being wholly loving. Each day is filled with opportunities to fulfill my heart’s desire. If I miss one, I know another will come. I live by grace. I AM blessed by sacred friends.


Transforming Challenges to Blessings

Sunday, October 27th, 2019

A lot of people are feeling extremely and consistently challenged right now – so if that’s you, just know you’re not the only one. Life IS intense for many people right now.
I remember there was a point in my spiritual unfoldment where it seemed like I was being challenged to my core. I felt that the challenges were coming in all directions.

My mother was diagnosed with terminal cancer.
My spiritual community profoundly let me down.
My best friend cheated on me.
My sweetheart … oh, don’t even get me started on that one.

Anyway, there was more but that’s enough – it was an ego lollapalooza of betrayals, upsets and freak-outs.

It felt like the challenges were on all levels and in all areas of my life – except that I had my health.

Thank GOD for that!

I had the sense that I was being “tested.” I was being tested not in the way that an unkind teacher would prepare a grueling test in order to put you through the wringer, but rather I was being tested in the sense of being offered an opportunity to rise above all past precedent and break through to a new level of awareness, understanding, strength, and willingness.

That time of challenges was far from easy.

It did help that I could feel that it was a test of my mettle. It was the opportunity for me to focus on developing the Clarity that I so deeply desired. It was the required course for me to purify my heart and relinquish the habits of playing small.

It was both difficult and exhausting. It was also exactly what I needed to step more into my true identity as a spiritual being capable of great Love and compassion. I reached a tipping point, and I have noticed that I’ve not had any backsliding. Instead, it continues to unfold and expand which is wonderful.

Honestly, I don’t see one spiritual student who truly wishes to awaken from the painful dream of separation who doesn’t go through some very intense time of healing. It’s when the storm is raging so intensely and we’re really up against it that we can break through the most intense attachments to the mental patterns of the past. It’s actually a tremendous gift from the Higher Self.

If we’re willing to give up the attachments to the past, we can have a whole new future.

Check out the photo above. I was leading my Teacher Training, and we’d just finished doing kundalini yoga when I stepped out to take my picture in front of this painting of the angel wings. Somehow, this rainbow was captured in the photo. Is it in my aura? I don’t need to make sense of it, but it’s a beautiful reflection of the beauty of spiritual practice and the practicality of doing the INNER work to release attachments.

We all know that willingness is the key to transformation. Spiritual practice is EVERYTHING in your awakening. Willingness to be loving and to choose that loving connection over everything else is a spiritual practice.

Leverage your willingness to choose love and cultivate a belief that you can leave the past behind and release the future, also.

This gives you the experience of being present to the now, which is the only place your transformation can happen.

When you feel you’re being tested, be grateful. The tipping point is at hand. Let’s go for it and let resistance be the reminder that we ARE doing it and we’re not stuck anymore!

Every day I offer “My Shot of Spiritual Espresso”. I write spiritual inspiration and record a prayer for our healing. Prayer is a power tool for our liberation. We use technology to transcend time and space, and deepen our spiritual practice and connect with each other. Our spiritual practice is our path of liberation, and that’s beautiful to share!

We’re all on a journey of expanding awareness, and there’s so much help for us in the invisible. We’re never alone. I Love you and I thank God for you. We bless each other with our willingness to rise in Spirit and come back into our right minds. Together we’re answering our call to BE the Love. YES!


Our Biggest Challenges

Monday, September 9th, 2019

We often think our biggest challenges are OUT THERE.

If only things on the outside could be brought to a place of Wholeness or healing then everything would be bearable. Of course, it’s not true for everyone all the time, but it’s likely true for everyone some of the time.

It’s when we’ve got a lot of “if only” thoughts running compulsively in our mind.

If only I could make enough money.
If only I could pay off this debt.
If only that person loved me.
If only that person would stay or come back.
If only that person hadn’t died.
If only I could get rid of them.
If only they would understand me.
If only they would stop that.

And on and on and on. That was a head space I occupied for a very long time. I was looking to change the circumstances because I believed that my happiness depended on them.

Since really deciding to LIVE A Course in Miracles I’ve discovered a couple of really cool things.

#1 – When I’m in my right mind, the things “out there” don’t have to change for me to be happy. My happiness comes from my relationship to myself and to my Higher Holy Spirit Self. When that relationship is good, all of life is good. Even if I don’t particularly like some parts of it, they don’t bother me much.

#2 – When I stop seeing things as problems, they tend to get healed and transformed. I’m no longer compulsive thinking about what I don’t like, crying and moaning and complaining about what isn’t working, and instead I’m focusing on my relationship with Spirit and with my relationship with my Self – and so I’m focused on something wonderful expanding and filling my attention – everything else starts to miraculously heal, as well. It’s miraculous!

Right now and these past few days, I’m leading the “Recovery from Sexual Abuse” retreat and this is what I’m seeing. We’re healing our mind about the past and it’s FUN! It’s joyous! There are tears, but we’re getting them out and DONE. We’re discovering that we can MOVE ON when we finally actually address the deepest causes of the suffering. And doing it together is so beautiful. It’s truly one of the most beautiful experiences I’ve ever had in my life.

I am so grateful that Spirit leads me and guides me and that I am willing to listen and follow.

I don’t do it perfectly all of the time, but when I am willing it brings benefit to all.

Are you still holding onto the pain of the past? Do you have an understanding of the reason or the resistance to let it go? Please tell us about it and share in the comments below! Let’s join together for our healing! Thank you!



Tuesday, August 27th, 2019

It’s so helpful to be come conscious about consciousness. A Course in Miracles tells us that consciousness is the first step in the experience of separation. It also tells us that there’s no such thing as unconsciousness. Whether we like to realize it or not, we’re always an active participants. We’re in the driver’s seat, even when we think we’re not.

I’m very familiar with how convenient it can seem to “just go unconscious,” but that’s a delusion we’re having in the context of the illusion. Just think how often we feel like we’d like to “tune out.” It’s often desirable to “zone out.”

What are we tuning out?

The noise, the stuff of life, the responsibilities, the drama and the trauma.

Are we tuning IN to anything when we’re tuning out?
Are we tuning in to Spirit when we’re tuning out the world?

I like to zone out and tune out, as well as tune in.

Usually when I zone out, I like to focus on something lovely or something that the Higher Holy Spirit Self can teach me through. Movies and TV are perfect for that – but not as much if we’re not consciously paying attention as we’re watching.

Sometimes we can even blame our unconscious pain, cravings, and aversions for overtaking us and controlling us – as if they have the power. But is that REALLY possible? It’s worth contemplating when we’re in the midst of it, to help us take back our power.

I know that when I’ve been tired and wished to tune out, I didn’t wish to contemplate anything. That was the last thing I wished to do. Now I’ve got the ability to stay conscious, and I’m grateful. When I stay conscious I stay loving. That’s a step in a healing direction, and it brings another healing step and another.

We can be willing to recognize our wanting and craving to go unconscious and give it to Spirit for healing. So much is possible for us – one choice at a time.

Please share your reflections on going unconscious and tuning out in the comments below!