Archive for the ‘Transformation’ Category

Trading Fear for Joy

Monday, August 10th, 2020

We frighten ourselves. We do. And we do it on purpose.

Some of us have trained ourselves to not rise above worry, anxiety, fear, sadness, or some other emotional state.

There can be many reasons for why we’re living this way.

To me, it doesn’t really matter why we’re being dysfunctional and living in fear or some other lower emotional state. I used to be fascinated with people’s psychological states and how they got there. I was so interested in people’s stories and tales of woe and how they had come to their conclusions that they weren’t good enough, or some other self-perception that was completely false.

Now, I can see that I was living from my intellect, always curious about other people’s patterns of “disinformation” about themselves so that I could be distracted from my own patterns. It’s not the case anymore.

Since Love is the healer, and only Love can heal whatever my issues are, analyzing how I got here isn’t helpful.

Only Love is helpful. I focus on how I can be loving to myself and others. It brings tremendous fruit! And fulfillment!

Are you analytical like me?
Do you feel safer living in your head than in your heart?

There’s a lot of us, and we can all be transformed by the Higher Holy Spirit Self. All we have to do is realize that our true heart’s desire is to live from the heart, ask the HHSS for support in living from the heart, and then follow the guidance until it feels easier and easier.

Before too long we will have changed our way of being in reaction and living in our intellect.

It brings such Joy and it puts an end to fear.

It’s so worth it. And our willingness is all that’s required.

Let’s be as willing as we can be to change our mind, be kind and remember to laugh. Our spiritual practice transforms the world!

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Beyond Hopeless & Helpless

Monday, July 27th, 2020

When it feels like there’s no way, Spirit can still make a way.
When it feels like only failure is possible, Spirit can still succeed.
When it feels like all is lost, Spirit can show us what’s valuable.

In God, all things worth doing, having and being are always possible.

When we’re feeling hopeless and helpless, then we’ve left God out of the equation, and that’s the real reason that we feel so down and desperate.

We can say we think that we feel despair because of what’s happening in the world, but our upset is really because we’re not allowing Spirit to lead us, guide us, and direct us. And we can change our mind. We can go the other way.

When we’re willing to put Spirit in charge then everything changes. It can seem that we don’t want change. It can feel as if change is a threat and a worry. We can fear change because we can’t control it, but the fact is that we can’t control anything, so let’s not fool ourselves anymore.

We can look to the world for examples – at some of the most “powerful” people in the world and see how they try so hard to control things and no matter how much “power and influence” they have, they still can’t control things to go their way.

In truth, there’s only one way, and that way is God’s way.

Let’s all get off the pain train and jump on board the Love Train. Let’s not wait until the pain is squeezing us so hard, we just wish we were dead.

Let’s simply put Spirit in charge and allow the miracles to unfold.

Let’s get out of the way. And let’s get on with it and do what we’re here to do – Love ourselves and each other.

“Wherever [the Holy Spirit] looks He sees Himself, and because He is united, He offers the whole Kingdom always. This is the one message God gave to Him and for which He must speak, because that is what He is. The peace of God lies in that message, and so the peace of God lies in you. The great peace of the Kingdom shines in your mind forever, but it must shine outward to make you aware of it.A Course in Miracles, T-6.II.12.

Let’s join together in prayer to shine the light outward in order to see it more clearly!


Grudges and Grievances

Friday, July 24th, 2020

I was an epic grudge holder. I was a dedicated grievance monger. I was a chronic complainer. And as I write these words, I can feel the energy of war, attack, violence that is in each of those thought patterns.

It made sense to me that holding grudges, grievances and complaints was a good strategy in life – until I realized what it was costing me and then I began to look for the fastest path to unwind those patterns from my mind.

Right now, I can feel that there’s an extraordinary opportunity for anyone who’d like to surrender these patterns and relieve themselves of the accompanying suffering that attends them.

It feels to me as though right now there’s a truly golden opportunity for anyone interested in letting the past go. It’s like being in some kind of spiritual car wash with a POWER CLEAN setting.

Of course we must be willing.
We must desire to let the past go and see the benefit in it.
And then we must actually CHOOSE to let it go – meaning that we change the channel of our mind to gratitude, and healing, and something wonderful instead of the past.

Each time we do this we’re not only helping ourselves, our family and loved ones, we’re helping ALL humanity, and future generations.

There are no small miracles. There are no small acts of Love.

“All expressions of love are maximal.” A Course in Miracles

Let’s put the pedal to the metal here and focus on this work at hand. Nothing is more important. It WILL bring healing, Abundance, Prosperity, Clarity, Freedom, Joy and all good things.

Offering up our complaints, grudges and grievances is the great gift we can offer right now.

Time to focus and make this clearing out our priority!

Are you with me?


We Can Rise

Monday, July 6th, 2020

In my Masterful Living Course it’s common for folks to share about how difficult things were in their relationships before they had the tools of transformation. For many who start with me in my Finding Freedom Spiritual Bootcamp, they make a shift and they never go back. For me, most of my relationships just keep getting better and stronger. It’s a continuous healing and spiraling up, but I haven’t always felt that way. Just the opposite.

I used to spend much of my time in relationships affirming what I did NOT want, and what I did NOT like and drawing painful conclusions that I’d just keep affirming again and again.

I used to regularly consider the idea of never speaking to any of them again. That idea was on a loop in my head for decades. How did I get it out? That’s what I focused on sharing in my classes now. It’s what I share about every week in my podcast.

As A Course in Miracles tells us, our relationships are the very best tool we have for transforming our mind.

It does take a great willingness.
And it so much easier to do it with a group of like-minded souls.

I used to crash and burn so often.
I used to give up so easily.

When I think about it, it’s so crazy that I had the discipline to hold on to a grudge for decades, but not to fee myself from the suffering it caused.

I’d say “I forgive” but I didn’t really mean it because I’d hold onto the judgment and keep energizing it. What I really was HOPING for was that if I said, I FORGIVE, the pain would stop.

Now, I’m SO GRATEFUL, GRATEFUL, GRATEFUL, for my experience! Why?

Because I went so low, I can rise so high!

Now, when others are telling me about their challenges, I can really use what I’ve learned to help others rise out of the hole of helplessness that I used to feel.

Yes, we can RISE out of the hole.

We don’t have to climb or dig.
We can rise.

With great willingness we can be lifted and carried.

It’s all about NOT going it alone anymore.
Suffering in semi-silence, and feeling alone was my thing.

I really didn’t know where to go or what to do in order to rise up. I had to figure it out. I had to rely on Spirit, it just took me a very long time to be willing.

This is a time of ancient patterns coming up to the surface with intensity and healing is happening in our hearts and miracles are demonstrating everywhere. This is the reason why we’re here at this time. To do our own inner work, to let the past go and bring benefit to all humanity.

We have what it takes!

Spirit cannot and does not fail.

We only fail when we go alone, furthering the belief in separation.

As Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr. said, we succeed when we’re co-workers with God.

That’s how we rise up and find the better way.
It’s always there for us when we’re willing to see with the eyes of Love.

Just yesterday, someone told me how my Finding Freedom From Fear class was the turning point for them in their relationships and in how they felt about themselves. If you’re ready for a turning point, please consider joining us!

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If you’d like support in doing this work of letting go of the past and being that impetus for healing in your family and in your workplace without getting discouraged and giving up, please consider taking my Finding Freedom From Fear spiritual bootcamp and joining with other like-minded souls who are doing the same work.

I find that when we do the work together, we get there faster and we laugh a lot more. It’s so much easier when we peel the layers of painful patterns together. Easier, faster, more Love, more Light, more fun, that’s the way for me!

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Transforming Terror to Peace

Tuesday, March 24th, 2020

Right now in the world, Covid-19, the Coronavirus, is raging in many places around the world. Countries are locking down. In some places, it’s illegal for people to be on the street with certain exceptions. There are all kinds of new rules and regulations coming into place. Some are to protect the populace and some are questionable invasions of citizen’s rights. Each country is different.

Some people are respecting the rules and warnings and some people are not.

We all have different ideas of what safety feels like, and we all have different trigger points of fear. As the U2 song says, “We’re one, but we’re not the same.” We’re not the same in our opinions and perceptions.

And so, we must respect these differences and have compassion for them.

As Thich Nhat Hanh, one of my teachers, has said, “Blaming never helps.”

A global pandemic is terrifying to a majority of people and we can respect how people feel while not giving in to the terror itself.

Terror, fear, comes from a perspective of wanting to control things that are not controllable.

Fear cannot arise unless attack is justified, and if it had a real foundation pardon would have none. The real world is achieved when you perceive the basis of forgiveness is quite real and fully justified.A Course in Miracles T-30.VI.3.

There will be more temptations to attack, to dispute, to make wrong than normal in this current climate of insecurity. Let’s not be tricked into believing our attack thoughts are correct. Let’s remember that “fear cannot arise unless attack is justified.” Anger and attack are so closely related, and neither is ever justifiable.

We can practice having an awareness of when we’re looking to justify our attack and our anger and lay those thoughts and beliefs on the altar. We invite the Higher Holy Spirit Self in to heal your mind about it. We will have healing as soon as we’re more willing than unwilling.

As soon as we’re more willing to let our belief go than we are willing to be righteous and right about it, the healing has happened.

Let’s go for that. More willingness.

Let’s focus on being willing to be HAPPY.

Right now, people are frightened and people are dying and people are grieving. Let’s not be petty about our grievances. I’d rather be kind to everyone now and be grateful they’re alive to annoy me.

I have a good friend who is in the hospital with this virus for 10 days now. No one can go and visit him. Lots of people are having their loved ones die in the hospital and they cannot be with them. So, if you’re finding yourself losing your patience with your loved ones, be EXTREMELY GRATEFUL they are there with you now. Raise yourself up by reaching for the Higher Holy Spirit Self. Don’t allow your vibration to fall down.

We’ll get through this and we have to do it together. LOVE is our healer. Not medicine, not food, not ventilators. LOVE.

How willing are you to practice radical patience right now? Please share in the comments below.


Transforming Anger & Bitterness

Sunday, February 16th, 2020

This life is about the journey, not the destination – we hear that all the time, but we still focus on the destination and sometimes we even make the journey very unpleasant by judging ourselves every step of the way. Been there, done that.

We judge our experience on the journey when there’s no added benefit. After all, we learn through contrast, it’s a journey of contrast, peaks and valleys.

Think of Dr. King and his mountain top speech. King told us that, in his heart and mind, he had felt and seen the fulfillment of his dream. He declared it in his very last speech, one of my favorites. He said he knew he might not get to the promised land with us in form, but he had seen the coming glory and knew it was real.

On the eve of his assassination, he told us he knew he had played his part, as difficult and grueling as it was and he was grateful. He was filled with gratitude at having played his part and for being able to truly know the coming glory. That’s the way to live our life.

Let us be grateful that we can play our part in learning what it feels like to live in despair and then decide to move out of it. As we learn to grow towards the Light of our own being, we teach it, we demonstrate it, we share it. That’s a good and beautiful purpose and I’m glad for it.

Let us be grateful that we can play our part in learning what it feels like to live in self-judgment and then finally decide to love ourselves and move forward in that discovery where the Love is that much more precious because we had to dig for it.

Let us be grateful that we can play our part in learning what it feels like to blame others for our problems and live in resentment and then finally decide to release the judgment, forgive ourselves for straying off course, and then discover all the wisdom, all the healing that was encoded into everything that we had labeled as a betrayal.

Let us be grateful that we can play our part in learning what it feels like to live a loveless life of manipulating and controlling others and finally realize that only giving without attachment brings Love and happiness.

Let us be willing to catch the vision of our future glory and hold it in our hearts now with a deep and abiding gratitude, allowing it to manifest as our very life.

Let us enjoy the journey together and drop all judgment, all criticism and all blame so we can truly live the intended glory of our life now. NOW. Now is the time for us to DECIDE we’re done with playing small, and living in lack and limitation. Now is the time for us to choose to move towards the Light in a dedicated and devoted way.

I’m a huge proponent of becoming dedicated and devoted.

The more dedicated I am to Spirit, the more I can feel Spirit’s dedication to me.

It’s always been there, but now I can really FEEL how supported I am.

Before, I was rejecting all the Love of the Universe because I didn’t feel worthy.
It’s actually a discipline we have to learn in order to let Love in.

It sometimes seems as though we don’t have what it takes to really have a powerful spiritual practice because we’ve left a long trail of broken promises that we’ve made to ourselves. I know A LOT about that.

No matter what the past has been, we can start again in this moment and the key to our success will ALWAYS be allowing Spirit to do the heavy lifting of figuring out how the healing will happen.

We don’t have to figure out HOW.
Our one job is to ALLOW.

Spirit knows the way.

Life IS Love and Love knows the way. There is that within us that knows, and we can ALLOW ourselves to be led. Let us be dedicated and devoted to the truth.

Dedication to Love not to rules, and limitation.
Devotion to being kind, generous of heart, patient, and helpful has transformed my life because it has kept my attention on Love.

I used to be angry most of the time.
I felt bitter and resentful much of the time.

I would look for things to be upset about, in order to release some of the steam that was building up inside me. I’d blast it out all over people for any reason whatsoever. I didn’t think about others, I was only hurting and needing to explode.

I felt entitled to hijack the conversation, the day, the event, the dinner, or whatever was going on. I’d hijack it with my desperation and my upset.

Ultimately, I realized, I hate myself for doing that and I have to learn to stop.

I became very determined to learn patience, kindness and generosity of heart and to practice it NO MATTER WHAT. It wasn’t easy for me. It was extremely challenging and yet, just like when you challenge your physical body to strengthen through working out really hard, you can train your mind to be stronger and more fit.

And that’s what A Course in Miracles is.
It’s a mind training system that works.
When we apply it.

Learning to apply it was challenging only because my willingness to be loving was so much weaker than my need to be right about everything. That need to be right came from weakness. Every time I acted it out, I felt even more weak. What strengthened me was choosing to be loving.

And that’s why I offer Masterful Living now – because when we do it together it’s SO much easier. I’ve reopened registration for 1 week and it’s up on Monday – then registration is closed till next year.

I decided to have 1 goal – and that goal was to simply be loving.

Let’s pray to let Spirit lead us and guide us!

We use technology to transcend time and space and deepen our spiritual practice. And that’s beautiful!

Spirit is always for us and never against us and we can learn to rely upon that and when we do, we feel carried and lifted to much higher ground. Like, MLK, we can start to see and feel the promised land and recognize that it is within us. It has been there all along!


Spiritualization of the Ego

Sunday, December 15th, 2019

Greetings to you from Scottsdale, Arizona. I’ve really been enjoying my time in the desert and time with my Prayer Partners for the last 22 years. It’s such a blessing when we can get together to have fun, to pray, and to share deeply and authentically – not to mention to play board games, have great food, go for hikes and enjoy the sunset.

It’s nice to have a break and some fun, because the last 7 days have been a DOOZY for many people. Old ugly patterns of thinking and feeling have been coming up into our awareness so that we could choose our healing. For many people, it was about feeling extreme self-criticism. We were talking about this in Masterful Living this week. Many felt that negative thought patterns of anxiety and self-criticism were coming up to the surface in a way that felt overwhelming. Almost like a pimple getting ready to pop.

And then came the full moon in the middle of the week, and that really turned up the inner emotional pressure on things. Did you feel it?

The energy of any full moon is one of releasing that which is no longer helpful and harvesting the learning from our experience. This week sure offered us that opportunity.

That night it took me hours to go to sleep. Fortunately, I’ve learned to take that time to pray and simply be at Peace with not sleeping.

I’ve learned that the main thing for me to focus on is blessing my brothers and sisters, knowing the truth about them, and then secondarily, to be grateful for my life and grateful that I can effectively pray – that I have an effective spiritual practice, and so I don’t have to feel worried or afraid and it doesn’t matter whether I sleep or not.

Prayer is restorative even when I’m praying for others.


Because when I know the truth for anyone, I know the truth for everyone, and that includes me because there is only one. There is only everyone. If I pray for one person, all are included because we’re one, united and inseparable. My prayer for my Self is a prayer for you and vice versa.

Isn’t that beautiful?

I enjoy praying, and I have so many people to pray for, that being in prayer is a sweet way to invest the time when sleep doesn’t come. Although I wasn’t sleeping, I was prayerfully resting which is SO restorative and I woke up feeling refreshed, even though I had much less sleep.

Holiday times can be painfully stressful. During these pressured days, old unhealed emotional and mental patterns come up for healing almost daily. And don’t we know it!! We can have healing if we choose it.

When we partner UP with our Higher Holy Spirit Self and strengthen our spiritual practice we’ll have healing.

When we complain, we’ll feel the pain.

This is true for all of us.

Why sabotage ourselves by self-inflicting pain when we have so much to gain?

Let us turn every painful moment into a transformational healing experience by choosing to deepen our practice of choosing Love and Partnering UP.

An effective spiritual practice has transformed my life. I invested a lot of energy chasing spiritual information and stuffing my intellect with it – that has not helped me at all, not one little bit of it.

Instead, I distracted my self by pursuing spiritual information rather than spiritual insight. I distracted myself by training to be more perfect instead of recognizing my inherent perfection.

I’m so glad I finally came to my senses and focused on cultivating a spiritual practice that would help me to liberate from the intellect and free my mind from distractions.

All through the holidays, we get to choose Heaven or hell with each choice we make. If you find the holidays difficult, if you struggle with old family patterns, if you’re feeling you’d like to really have a breakthrough then you might find my F* Me Here Come the Holidays free class helpful. (The “F” is for forgiveness.)

You can sign up now for this free class offering this week.

When there are healing opportunities available to us and we don’t choose them, and instead repeat the past, we begin to feel discouraged and downtrodden but we may not know why.

When our Spirit is working so intently to support us in having the breakthroughs we desire, and we choose to ignore them or let them pass us by, it eats away at our self-esteem. Even if we don’t even consciously know it. And that causes more issues.

So, let’s choose healing and not delay another day.

Let’s stop spiritualizing the ego.

Extending Love is healing.

Reading books is not healing.

Not that reading books is bad – not at all – but it’s not enough.

Forgiveness is healing.

Choosing Love is healing.

Choosing patience, kindness, generosity of heart, and willingness is healing.

A Course in Miracles is crystal clear about how we bring on our healing breakthrough to live a happy and harmonious life. Still, many people study ACIM and other spiritual teachings without actually applying the teachings and so they don’t receive the healing benefits.

Information isn’t healing.

Spiritual practice is healing.

If you’d like to have a powerful, healing and transformative spiritual practice that TRULY helps you to undo the past, release attachments and dissolve the patterns of pain, consider joining me in Masterful Living Course 2020. We’ve got a lot to offer!

Follow your intuition – let yourself be guided by Spirit to join us or not.
Let’s all make the most of the holiday healing that is available to us and grab all the healing we can! Enough with hell! Let’s choose Heaven today!

Every day I offer “My Shot of Spiritual Espresso”. I write spiritual inspiration and record a prayer for our healing. Prayer is a power tool for our liberation. Pray with me today. The Prayer for Today is for Spiritual Transformation. We use technology to transcend time and space and deepen our spiritual practice and connect with each other. Our spiritual practice is our path of liberation. And that’s beautiful to share!

I am grateful for this path we’re on and our ability to take the next healing step upon it!

Are you unsure about whether my yearlong Masterful Living 2020 is right for you right now? You can book an Exploratory Call with one of the Spiritual Counselors and let them answer all your questions. Click here now to book an Exploratory Call. If you’re going to join us next year in the Masterful Living Course 2020, I encourage you to register early. Make the commitment to yourself NOW and you’ll have so much to look forward to – including tremendous healing and transformation! Give yourself this gift and you’ll be amazed at how your connection with Spirit will bloom!

I’m loving the sunset views of Camelback Mountain!


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The Treasure is in Our Heart

Saturday, November 30th, 2019

This world is one where truth seems like a lie and a lie seems like the truth. Example: We, who are perfect, believe that we’re less than perfect.

Or how about this: We who are One with our Creator and can bring forth magnificence into existence, believe that we’re lacking.

Pause for a moment and consider this: are you looking for something, ANYTHING, in the world to make you feel better?

Do you believe that if things in the world were different that you’d feel better about yourself?

If so, you’re like most people – and the good news is you can shift that and actually feel better about your life! How crazy is it that eliminating looking for things in the world to improve our lives can actually improve our life? Crazy!

The Kingdom of Heaven is within each one of us. If we’re looking to find it somewhere outside of our own heart, then we will never, ever even catch a glimpse. Many people are still seeking outside of themselves, thinking that what they deeply want, need, and desire is somewhere in the world. They believe if they look long and hard enough, they might find it. They believe that if they work hard enough, they will be able to manifest it or attract it. They believe that if they’re lucky, someone will give it to them.

All of that seeking is an illusion.

The Kingdom is within us, and to look elsewhere is to go on a fool’s errand. Deep down, we all know this. That’s why so many despair. They are afraid to look within. And yet, that’s where Heaven can be found.

That’s where our treasure truly is.

Why would someone be afraid to look for the Kingdom in the one and only place it can be found? Well, if we’re thinking of ourselves as not good enough, if we’re thinking that inside of us is something ugly and unworthy, if we feel we’re filled to the brim with guilt, blame, and shame – then we probably won’t feel excited about looking within.

Instead, we’ll fear what we might find. Better not to look within and simply continue to seek in vain. Many believe the suffering of NOT finding is less than the suffering of discovering just how ugly your own heart is and don’t even know it. This is the thought that keeps so many from discovering the amazing riches of the Kingdom.

“Remember that where your heart is, there is your treasure also.” A Course in Miracles

The Truth: Amazing riches are ours already – the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow is pre-installed!

Let’s look within so we can find the treasure where it actually is!

31 Days to January 1st – I share what I learned that shifted me out of my habits of spinning around in the same repeating upsets in my Masterful Living Course 2020. Registration is open NOW. I encourage you to commit now so that you have that to look forward to. At no charge, you can also book an Exploratory Call to speak with one of the Spiritual Counselors who has already done the program and they can help you be clear if this is right for you right now.

Click here now to book a free Exploratory Call about Masterful Living 2020.

NEW Class in December: Undoing Unworthiness! Stop Self-Attack NOW! A belief in unworthiness and a habit of self-attack undermines your happiness every moment of every day.

With the work we’ll do in this class, you can end your year feeling spiritually successful and start your new year ready to have the best year ever. This is the perfect time to do this. Click here now to learn more.

A 3-part live video online class to support you in having a breakthrough and learning the REAL benefits of life when you feel worthy of Love, Abundance and ALL the good life has to offer.

What could be more important than your happiness?


Transforming A Belief in Lack

Tuesday, November 12th, 2019

I didn’t realize it, but I was preventing myself from having healthy Self-esteem. I was actively ignoring the warning signs from Spirit and I was degrading my own sense of well-being and worthiness. And, to a large degree, I didn’t recognize the effects of the choices I was making. In a sense, I was “my own worst enemy.”

When I gave myself permission to attack others, to judge and criticize them, to blame and shame them, I didn’t realize it but I was preventing myself from having healthy Self-esteem.

Because we share the same mind and we can’t really hide our thoughts from anyone, it was as though I was covering myself with garbage and thinking no one would notice.

Things began to change for me when I realized what A Course in Miracles means when it says “there are no private thoughts.”

Once I was willing to actually accept that the One Mind is a fact and that we all share and have access to the One and only Mind of God, I began to choose different thoughts.

I became aware that every negative thought I had was a form of pollution I was sharing with all of life. My personal negativity, even if it seemed as though I was keeping it to myself, was like toxic waste poured into the collective drinking supply.

Similarly, every loving thought brings a healing benefit to all.
To have, give all to all.
Give Love, give patience, give compassion.

When there is shame and self-judgment, the way out of that icky sticky thought pattern is through forgiveness.

We must forgive ourselves for believing something false about ourselves it is the ONLY way to move out of the lack of Self-Love.

That lack of Self-Love is an illusion generated by our pouring our energy and awareness into thoughts about ourselves and others that are blatantly false.

When we believe in lack, we experience lack.

When I saw even a glimpse of the power of my thought, I made the commitment to focus on changing my mind.

I set the goal of cultivating an awareness of my thoughts and beliefs. I decided to be truly mindful. It felt like a burden in the beginning. It felt overwhelming to realize how focused on negativity I was. I decided to actively replace the negativity with loving thoughts and actions. But as I began to take out the trash from my mind and let Spirit heal it back to the root cause, there was less trash in my mind and I began to noticeably feel better about myself right away.

I saw that every time I chose a loving thought, I actually felt better about myself. That was tangible and it felt miraculous. I was so grateful that I could start to feel that I was being truly helpful instead of feeling like I was a monster.

I decided to focus on being aware of shame thoughts so that I could eliminate them. I was so grateful I could eliminate thinking that was designed to keep me feeling bad about myself. I was ashamed of playing small and living in limitation. Shame comes directly from believing limited thoughts that aren’t true.

You cannot feel ashamed unless you believe a lie.
Shame drags our Self-Esteem to the ground.

We’re taught to feel ashamed of our thoughts and our desires. The idea is that if we’re ashamed then we won’t act upon it – but we all know it’s not true. Consider all of us who just hide what we’re thinking and feeling.

We’re taught to feel ashamed about how we look and how we feel. We can change our minds about these things. We can recognize that just because we have a thought doesn’t mean we are “shame-full”.

In my experience as a Spiritual Counselor for 17 years, many people have told me the things they’re most ashamed of, and through the sharing of it with me they’ve been able to relinquish the shame they felt. Bringing things to the Light is deeply healing when it’s done with someone who can be 100% compassionate and loving – and we can give ourselves this gift of Love if there’s no person who can support us.

Shame has no value to our Spirit, which is ever expansive and unprecedented – only the ego values living in lack and limitation. Being supportive and loving has value and keeps us in the flow of Love, which unites us with healing, Prosperity, and God’s Infinite Goodness. The more loving we are, the less shame we feel, the more Self-esteem we have.

The beginning of a transformation for me came in being willing to be aware of ALL my thoughts. I began to replace the attack thoughts with thoughts that extended Love. And lo and behold, I began to self-medicate less and less because I was more and more willing to be aware of my thoughts because they were more and more loving.

I was building my Self-esteem in two ways:
I was decreasing my shame by reducing my negativity.
The less negativity I had, the less interested I was in self-medicating.
The less self-medicating I did, the better I felt about myself.

Shame is a cycle.

I would get triggered with low self-esteem thoughts and then I’d engage in self-medication (low self-esteem behavior), and that would give me something to feel ashamed about and then I’d want to self-medicate to forget about how I felt. The cycle would repeat, and it felt like a whirlpool pulling me in.

Choosing loving thoughts changes the direction of the whirlpool. What I found was that I began to spiral up, and feeling better and better about myself I was inspired and motivated to keep going and increasing my awareness.

I began to build on my success, and I feel as though I climbed out of a very intense whirlpool. I was more than willing – I had a great desire to change my life, and I let Spirit show me the way. It worked and it continues to work, and this is precisely why I teach my classes the way that I do. I know the benefit of doing this work, and I know how hard it is to do it on my own.


Surviving Intense Times with Grace

Sunday, October 20th, 2019

What I am noticing is that the time of healing is getting increasingly intense for all of us.  People are melting down and flipping out.  

For those who are fully committed to being loving and compassionate, it does get easier and easier. Still, there’s not one of us that isn’t being energetically pushed to give up the habits, beliefs, and patterns that keep us playing small.

In my own experience, I noticed a pattern that repeated itself for many years until I finally broke out of it.

My pattern was this:

I would get triggered by something. Something would happen that felt like it was wrong and bad. It felt like a betrayal or a loss. I would start to ruminate on it, building my case like a lawyer gathering evidence for the dark side of my personality. I call it making “resentment stew.”

I would continue to stir that pot and eat from it, day after day, strengthening my case to argue about the unfairness, the blame, and my resentment. It was as though I was constantly arguing my case before God, looking for God to make me right and to make THINGS in my life right.

It took me A VERY LONG TIME – many, many years, to realize that the daily consumption of “resentment stew” was driving a whole sequence of things – it was part of a very intense pattern.

Here’s what I learned:

The making of the “resentment stew” would lower my vibration, which made me unable to see many good things that were available to me. I literally couldn’t see them or receive them because I wasn’t a vibrational match for them. Instead, I became a vibrational match for things I DID NOT want happening in my life.

My choice to ruminate on what I didn’t like and didn’t want just brought more of it into my life, because like attracts like.

Then I would find myself withdrawing into isolation and self-medication in order to drown out how I was feeling and, of course, lowered my vibration even more. It gained me even more time to ruminate on what I didn’t like and weave the web of attachment to upset.

There were times in that stuck place of self-medicating that I would literally think “This is all I have. This momentary distraction and fake pleasure of self-medication, the numbing of my mind and senses.” It was the only thing I was “enjoying.” I lost track of what real enjoyment, pleasure, and happiness were. My whole perspective got skewed and twisted.

I knew it was self-sabotage. I hated myself for it. I felt compelled and addicted. AND, because of focusing so much on resentment and revenge, I didn’t have the strength to lift myself out of it. My negativity made me weak. Like Superman and kryptonite – our resentments and judgments make us weak.

It is a dangerous and slippery slope.

It felt like I was caught in a whirlpool that was pulling me down, further and further. I wanted so much to live a spiritual life – to get God’s Seal of Approval and goodness, and it would seem further and further away.

The pull of the negative pattern was SO STRONG.

I remember thinking this thought “When I die from being stuck in this pattern, they should write on my gravestone – ‘She tried, she really tried, but she just couldn’t do it – the pull was too strong.'”

I couldn’t see the pattern until I was willing to take responsibility for it. I had to stop blaming others for how I felt and where I was in my experience. When I finally became honestly willing to commit to giving up my attack thoughts – the judgments and opinions, and all the attachments to the meaning I made of things, my interpretations and what I thought was right and wrong – that’s when things changed for me.

Because of my willingness to look for loving thoughts and to stop energizing the unloving thoughts, I learned that true gratitude raises my vibration very quickly. It was a relief to be grateful and raise my vibration! 

I learned to be grateful for everything and to practice it as part of my spiritual practice ALL DAY LONG. I began to trade the constant judging attack thoughts for being truly grateful, and that led me to see that I am the one who is responsible for everything in my life.

I learned that everything serves a good and holy purpose in my life – everything. And, I learned to accept that fact with gratitude, even when it didn’t make any sense for me. And I learned to ask for help from the I AM Presence – the Higher Holy Self.

I realized I was never upset for the reason I thought, and I was always upset when I didn’t take responsibility and didn’t choose gratitude. It was pretty simple, really. Phew! I started to see some light at the end of this birthing tunnel.

Gratitude raises us up so we can see and hear and feel and know more clearly the truth that sets us free.

The most challenging and torturous situations in my life became a Godsend. Literally. I couldn’t see that until I was willing to see it. (This is why I say: You gotta wanna.) The intensity of my challenges gave me the PRESSURE COOKER to be vigilant and change my mind 1000 times a day. 

I began to be grateful for everything, even when it felt like my heart was breaking and my mind was at war with itself. That pressure cooked me, and I began to live a miraculous life — because of my willingness.

In the last 19 years of counseling, teaching classes and workshops, and leading retreats, I’ve experienced a lot of miraculous healing and I’ve witnessed a lot of miraculous healing. My offerings are about doing the work – rolling up your spiritual sleeves and getting to it – in the community – with like-minded souls who also have some degree of willingness.

Together we wipe away the shame, reluctance, resistance, self-hatred, and the stains of all the mistakes of the past. A lot of the time it’s not easy. It requires attention and willingness. It rocks our world. And, it does bring a miraculous life – a life of miracles, unfolding Joy and Beauty. It’s a fact.

Sometimes the 3-D world of form seems so intense. I call it density, because that’s how it feels when we’re stuck in the muck and mire. What we don’t know is that the density becomes so intense to get us in order to squeeze us to finally make a decision to do things differently. It’s like the pressure that is put on a piece of coal to reveal the diamond that is possible. It’s like a birthing.

Birthing is never easy, never pretty. It’s always quite messy. There’s screaming and crying and pain.

We all have a diamond heart we’re giving birth to. We can discover it willingly and gratefully or with tremendous pressure, or we can give up and come back later. It’s up to us. It’s our choice. This world is about choice.

Rev. Michael Beckwith introduced me – spiritually – to the wonderful Christian Mystic, Dr. Howard Thurman whose writings have been an inspiration to me. I share this with you now as an offering of inspiration to remember you are true diamond heart nature:

The Moments of High Resolve

“Despite the dullness and barrenness of the days that pass, if I search with due diligence, I can always find a deposit left by some former radiance. But I had forgotten. At the time it was full-orbed, glorious, and resplendent. I was sure that I would never forget. In the moment of it’s fullness, I was sure that it would illumine my path for all the rest of my journey. I had forgotten how easy it is to forget.

“There was no intent to betray what seemed so sure at the time. My response was whole, clean, authentic. But little-by-little, there crept into my life the dust and grit of the journey. Details, lower-level demands, all kinds of crosscurrents – nothing momentous, nothing overwhelming, nothing flagrant – just wear and tear. If there had been some direct challenge, a clear-cut issue, I would have fought it to the end and beyond.

“In the quietness of this place, surrounded by the all-pervading presence of God, my heart whispers: Keep fresh before me the moments of my High Resolve, that in fair weather or in foul, in good times or in tempests, in the days when the darkness and the foe are nameless or familiar, I may not forget that to which my life is committed.”

Keep fresh before me the moments of my high resolve. ~ Dr. Howard Thurman

In this time of birthing, don’t give up. Keep fresh before you the moments of your high resolve. Call upon the Higher Holy Self to lead the way and bring the Light. Find like-minded souls to go through the journey with. Give yourself extra support, tenderness, and care. Begin to speak to yourself with words of Love, “Darling, you can do it, you ARE doing it. Sweetheart, you have what it takes. Everything is for you and nothing is against you. You already are perfect Love.”

Now is our time, now is your time. You DO have what it takes – it’s pre-installed and cannot be damaged or removed. The Kingdom is within, seek first the Kingdom and ALL else will be added unto you. A little gratitude and willingness will turn the tide today. It always does.

Every day I offer “”My Shot of Spiritual Espresso”.  I write spiritual inspiration and record a prayer for our healing.  Prayer is a power tool for our liberation.  We use technology to transcend time and space and deepen our spiritual practice and connect with each other.  Our spiritual practice is our path of liberation.  And that’s beautiful to share!

We’re all on a journey of expanding awareness, and there’s so much help for us in the invisible.  We’re never alone.  I Love you, and I thank God for you.  We bless each other with our willingness to rise in Spirit and come back into our right minds.

Together we’re answering our call to BE the Love.  YES!  


Self-Defense is Attack

Monday, October 7th, 2019

One mental habit that takes up a LOT of time and energy is defending ourselves. Here’s an example from an experience I witnessed years ago:

Someone says: I wish there was coffee. I’d really love a cup right now.

Defender: You never said you were going to want coffee, so I didn’t prepare for that. If you had let me know you were going to want coffee I could have gotten it for you. All you had to do is let me know, but you never said anything about coffee, even though we talked about what we’d do today three times. You never once brought it up. So, I had no way of knowing. You never said anything to me about coffee.

Someone: Right, I get it. You didn’t make any mistakes. I never thought about it until right now. It was just a thought “It would be nice to have coffee now.” It’s not a big deal. I don’t need any coffee.

Defender: It’s not my fault there’s no coffee. You never mentioned that you might want coffee. I had no idea that you might want coffee. If I’d known, I could have prepared. I would have been happy to get you some coffee and have it ready for you if I’d known, but you never said anything.

Someone: It’s cool. Not a problem. You didn’t do anything wrong.

Defender: But if you’d just told me, you could have had what you wanted. I could have done that for you. I just had no way to know because you never said anything.

Someone: I get it. Can we please stop talking about this now?

Many of us have some version of this defensive habit.

It’s another way that we can recognize that we have a deep-seated belief that we’re bad, wrong, not enough, too much, unlovable, unworthy and it’s all a big hoax.

All of that mental gymnastics takes a lot of energy and it’s wearisome to everyone involved. How do we get out of the pattern?

Here’s what I did: I simply started to notice it and to notice that when I was defending myself I didn’t feel good. My Peace felt temporarily gone. I learned to stop mid-sentence and do a u-turn.

Instead of defending myself, I started to simply take 100% responsibility for everything that was happening and eliminate all blame.

I have found that taking 100% responsibility without any blame eases my pain, and that’s a worthwhile gain!

Try it and see for yourself!

Are you SO ready to give up the self-attack and self-defense patterns? True and lasting healing is available to us when we stop blocking the flow with regrets and resentments. If you’re interested in help with that, check out my Finding Freedom Spiritual Boot camp class which starts on Thursday, October 10.

Last Chance for Worthiness Workshop!
TODAY and Wednesday this week.

When we don’t feel connected to Spirit and supported by Spirit, or even when we fear God, it’s most likely a result of feeling unworthy. If you suspect that worthiness is your issue, then you might consider receiving my gift. My “Worthiness” Workshop this past weekend was such a hit that I’m offering it again this week. Register to get my worksheet and fill it out. I’ll let you know when the next workshop is!

There’s no cost, but you do have to register. Click here to register now.

Worthiness Workshop

This workshop is for people who are interested in making a change. When you register, I’ll send you a link to download the worksheet that you’ll need to set aside some time to fill out and bring to the workshop to be able to get the benefits. Let’s do this healing together and not put it off any longer!


Transform Hate to Love

Thursday, August 29th, 2019

WOWZER! What excellent proof of our thoughts becoming our experiences. A recent study by scholars from the University of North Texas has shown that “Counties that had hosted a 2016 Trump campaign rally saw a 226% increase in reported hate crimes over comparable counties that did not host such a rally.”

Fortunately, Love is powerful and hate is not.

Love is everything and hate is nothing.

Love lifts us all and hate only pulls down those who subscribe. Those who are loving are invulnerable to the call of hatred.

Rev. Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr. said, “Hate begets hate; violence begets violence; toughness begets a greater toughness. We must meet the forces of hate with the power of love… Our aim must never be to defeat or humiliate the white man, but to win his friendship and understanding.”

King understood the power of Love.

John F. Kennedy was demonstrating wise leadership when he said, “Those who make peaceful revolution impossible will make violent revolution inevitable.

Let us hold in our hearts the teachings of A Course in Miracles: “Seek not to change the world but to change your mind about the world.”

Let the revolution begin in our mind and spread everywhere – after all, we share the same mind! The revolution is ON!

Each day offers us the perfect opportunity to take demonstrative loving action and transform the mind of those who are caught in a web of hate. Because we share the same mind, our loving and generous thoughts of compassion will help them to come back into their right mind. This is the power of Love.

As King said, said, “Darkness cannot drive out darkness; only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate; only love can do that.”

Anyone and everyone can be a bringer of Light. It’s a decision we make. We are the Light, and therefor miracles are natural. Our awakening is inevitable. Let’s commit to supporting our brothers and sisters by seeing their innocence and knowing that there is that within them that only knows the power of Love. Our willingness to see them correctly helps them to be redeemed into their loving heart.

After all, this is what we would wish someone to do for us if we were lost in an attachment of hatred. Right?

How will you extend compassion and Love to those who have the appearance of hatred? Let’s be real and tangible here. Please share in the comments below. Thank you!